I woke up this morning feeling anxious and out of sorts, for many known and unknown reasons. I could not even focus to meditate, which is usually my bliss place, so I set my intention for the day to feel childlike wonderment, which was really the opposite of how I was feeling. I felt called to go to the beach before breakfast and became sweetly and expansively enveloped by the sun and waves. Taking time to be still on the beach honored my emotions as I redirected my intentions of how I would like to feel.
After breakfast I decided to try surfing for the first time in over 6 months when we were last in Central America. My perseverance to try again and again was met with triumphant joy, as I rode the waves standing perched atop our surf board. In my heart and body I was filled with joy and delight, and felt 5 or 6 y.o. instead of 56 y.o.
My husband cheered me on, which felt so sweet to my heart too, especially since we were having some tension earlier, due to not having shampoo and my hair felt really yukky. Paul has chemical sensitivity due to mold exposure and we have been unable to find any fragrance free shampoo here in Nosara for the 2 weeks we have been here. He was going to try to ‘fix it’ by walking many miles (as we have no car) to find shampoo I could use. Although I appreciated his desire to help , I sensed it would not be his top choice to set off on this mission. I found the courage to share my honest feelings with him around this and challenged him not to go to try and find the fragrance free shampoo. We both still try to be people pleasers sometimes. Our love for each other is so great and we are very in tune to each other, so we try to make every thing ok for the other, even when its sometimes not in alignment with our own highest good. At that moment in time, he really heard what I was expressing and let it go and went back to our room to write, which is what he really wanted to do. Being authentically honest in sharing my feelings and vulnerabilities, opened the door to another important letting go, deeper understanding of our tendency to ‘caretake’ and a refreshing closeness to each other and a breaking and freeing of the chain links of what we think we should do and totally clearing the tension that was there. Little unspoken tensions will build bigger walls that separate us even from those we hope to be close to. Expressing myself freely, like a child, and being heard and honored by my husband, made me feel lighter and ready to go on with my day in a lighter, more uplifted way.
As Paul headed off to write, I planned to do yoga on the beach. Off in the distance, I saw a young lady doing yoga poses at the water’s edge. In my heart I literally wanted to go ‘play yoga’ with her. Even though I felt shy to approach someone I did not know, I followed my heart. I felt childlike, as my excitement and potential inner joy greeted her with my smiling introduction, “Hi, my name is Donna Maria. Do you want to play yoga with me?” She smiled back and said “sure.” We began with very little talking, other than deciding to take turns doing various yoga poses and bowing to each other in prayer pose when we were ready to switch. Much smiling and laughter were freely shared with each pose as we ended up on our heads in the mud. My new playmate, Millenia, taught and gave me the spontaneous excitement and courage to try headstands away from the wall for the first time. Falling over in the mud was just as fun as being able to hold a head stand for the first time. Just as exciting was the childlike wonderment we were both feeling as we went off into the waves to play mermaids. My playmate has quickly become one of my favorite new friends. She is full of childlike wonderment and joy, and we share and fill each other with these positive energies each time I see her.
Every time I recall this precious day, the feelings of childlike wonderment re-ignite in me and I am continually amazed with the incredible power of our thoughts and intentions and the day and life they truly create.
The next time I saw Millenia, when we went to a yoga class together, she said that later that day a friend shared his bicycle. She had not ridden a bike in 4 years, and said she relearned and rode the bike, totally filled with joy and childlike wonderment that was ignited in our earlier connection.
As we continually shed and let go of negative emotions and fill ourselves with positive thoughts and intentions, magical and beautiful things happen. I hope you will give it a try. How would you like to feel today? Set that for your intention and see what manifests! The light in me sees the light in you.
Love For All ,
Donna Maria
